Why do I keep a diary? Sometimes I just need to write.
I recently read something about how people that write diaries only do so because they secretly want someone to read it. That might be true. But the reason why I keep a diary is because sometimes I just need to write. Sometimes it’s because I want to be able to look back at it in ten years time or whatever and just see what I was up to. And other times it’s because writing stuff down helps me make sense of it. Like in uni when I was feeling low I’d write in my diary. I’d just grab my pen and write, without looking back at what I’d already written but just keep writing. Because once I’d started, I kept going. It’s like my hand’s waiting for a pen so it can express me and also so I can explain to myself what I’m feeling and all that jazz.
The reason why I keep a diary is because I find it easier to express myself through writing. And I don’t look back at what I’ve written often because some of the stuff I’ve written is from when I felt so low – why would I want to look back/remember that? I mean, I don’t only write in my diary when I need to express myself, it’s also just for the sake of it. To update it.
I started this one in uni when I just wanted to write everything down. And I barely wrote in it the except for when I needed to. And even now I barely write in it. I’ve been meaning to for a while but just haven’t. It’s sat right next to me at this very moment, in fact, waiting to be written in. And I probably will write in it in a bit.
Although I have my blog to write posts for, writing a diary is so different. It’s the stuff that you couldn’t/don’t want to put on your blog. It doesn’t need to be altered or edited and it’s not for anyone else to read; it’s for me. Do I secretly want someone to read it? Hmm, if I told you it wouldn’t be a secret would it! Jokes. I can understand people that do, though, because they want someone to understand what goes on in their minds and to understand the truest, unedited versions of themselves. Having said that, I don’t want any of you going searching for my diary now lol.
When I was younger I used to keep a diary, too. I used to write down what I’d been up to and what I was doing. I remember writing about not saying bye to one of my friends when we broke up for half term in year 7/8 and how I wasn’t going to see her alllll of the Summer holidays lol. In fact, let me know if you think I should react to or ‘expose’ my diary from 10 years ago. That would be hilarious tbh. I’ve actually wanted to do that for so long but have just never got round to it. Should I do it?
PS. This Hogwarts notebook isn’t actually my diary, I got it for my birthday. But I already had these pictures taken & they fit pretty well with the post sooo it made sense to use them…right?
Thank you for reading! Have you ever kept a diary?
Until next time,
1 Week Mary x