I graduated in July. It’s now 3 months later and I don’t have a graduate job.
The truth is I should have applied whilst I was in my final year. But I didn’t. That’s partly because I had so much going on what with my dissertation and assignments, partly because I got lazy and 100% because I procrastinated (don’t do the math, it doesn’t make sense). I should have applied for graduate jobs, simple as. Graduate schemes, too. But I didn’t and there’s nothing I can do to change that. In fact, I started applying for graduate roles pretty late. I mean, I finished uni in May, my last exam was in June and my graduation was in July.
After I’d officially finished my exams in June, I did do a couple of roles. I worked as an exam paper marker marking SATs papers on a temporary basis. Once that came to an end I started applying again. In fact whilst I was at this job I remember I’d applied for a couple of graduate roles/roles in my field but hadn’t been successful. So I did an admin/call centre type role for a while. I did this for around a month, and what I should have been doing is simultaneously applying for my grad role. But I didn’t. And the reason why I didn’t is because we had Dubai booked for September, so I didn’t think there was any point applying when I already had holidays booked.
Looking back, I should have at least started applying in August time, but I fell into a slump. The ‘what do I do with my life’ slump. Experienced by those that have recently graduated and don’t know what’s going on in their lives nor what they should do. It consists of sitting at home, not leaving the house, ignoring everyone and distancing yourself from real people outside of the house. It also includes going to sleep really late and waking up really late. It’s a repetitive cycle. And it drives you crazy. It’s hard.
So I graduated in July, had an amazing time at my graduation alhamdulillah, one of my friends got married in July and that was amazing too alhamdulillah. So after that I went back to work and stayed there til the beginning of August when I realised it wasn’t for me and I couldn’t do it any more. And then the slump awoke. Anyone who’s been unemployed for a long period of time or has graduated and has nothing at all to do will know what I mean. I can’t say I was depressed but I will say that my life felt…it just felt kinda empty. I didn’t have anything to do. I had long periods where I didn’t even leave the house.
But I remember the one time I did leave the house after being sat inside for so long, I always felt better. Just catching up with friends or leaving the house or talking to people. It’s so so so easy to isolate yourself and almost ‘live’ in your isolation. But it’s dangerous.
I guess I was lucky alhamdulillah as I knew we were going to Dubai and I had that to look forward to. So as it got closer to September, I was shopping for clothes, researching what to do in Dubai and just knew that I had that to look forward to. And I really, really needed that holiday. Alhamdulillah I honestly felt like I needed it just to go out and take a break and forget about not having anything to do. Man. It was like the breath of fresh air that I really, really needed.
But then we came back. And I got back in that cycle. And now I didn’t know what the future held. Now I didn’t have Dubai to look forward to, now I didn’t have a job to go back to, I didn’t have that reassurance that I’d be going back to uni in September. It was back to this slump-filled reality. I must have left the house only once in 2 weeks. I just remember being so low and not myself.
And when you don’t have anything to do or no reason to go outside, you just don’t. Everyone’s busy with their lives, working, at uni but you have nothing at all to do. Eventually, in late September/early October I started applying for graduate jobs. Yay. And I must have gotten rejected for soooo many roles. I don’t mind the rejection, as I know the right job will find it’s way to me when the time’s right. But I kept applying, went for an interview – they didn’t end up getting back to me, oh well. I’m not bitter because I didn’t get the job. Of course, I want a graduate job and In Shaa Allah I’ll get one soon. I applied for soooo many roles, one which I would have loved to get, but I didn’t get it. That role wasn’t right for me and they must have found someone who was better suited to the role.
One more thing is that in this whole process, I was really, really lazy. The truth is I was only applying for jobs on indeed that said ‘Apply with your Indeed CV’ because I knew you could just click and send your CV to potential employers. I didn’t make any effort to apply for other jobs off indeed, or even the ones on indeed that asked for a covering letter or sent you through to an application form. And that was part of my downfall right there.
When I did eventually start filling out application forms and sending covering letters and actually making an effort to apply for roles I still got rejected. But the ones that asked for the application forms and all that were the ones that I actually wanted to do. These were the graduate roles. Not all of them were grad roles, tbh, but they were roles that I actually wouldn’t mind doing. The point I’m making is that I was getting into this slump and didn’t have a graduate job because I wasn’t making much effort to apply. Really what I was doing was applying to whatever I could see on indeed and hoping for the best. That is not the way to go about finding a graduate role that you’ll actually enjoy.
After still being unsuccessful finding a graduate job, I started to apply for other roles, not just graduate roles. But the truth is I’m actually alright now alhamdulillah. I fell in and out of that dangerous slump but right now I’m fine with not having a graduate job. Who knows, maybe it’s because I have 1 Week Mary that I can focus on growing and putting my energy into but I’m no longer in a slump. Like I said, I started applying for non-graduate roles (this was whilst I was still in that slump) and actually managed to secure one alhamdulillah. Although it’s not a graduate role, I’ve managed to secure myself a job in retail alhamdulillah. And I’m happy with that.
I guess it’s not related to my field, but you’re talking to people all day which I love doing, so I can’t complain. And as I’m looking to enter the digital marketing/social media management field, I have 1 Week Mary for that. My focus doesn’t need to be on finding my graduate role right now. I always said before graduating that I wanted to just get a part time job so I can focus on growing something myself. And Allah listened alhamdulillah. Even though I didn’t get/haven’t got my graduate job, maybe that’s for the best. Maybe it’s time to focus on 1 Week Mary and growing something for myself.
Having said that, I’m not against finding a graduate job. I’m no longer going to be desperately looking for any job I can find like I was beforehand as now I have a job alhamdulillah and will be In Shaa Allah starting soon.*
In reality, who knows what the future holds? Maybe I shouldn’t be focusing my time and energy on 1 Week Mary and maybe I should be looking for a grad role in my field. But I can only do what I feel is right and right now, I think I need to grow 1 Week Mary. And when I start this job and find out it’s coming to an end (it’s a temporary role), I will most likely be applying for roles again. But right now, I know I have a job that starts soon In Shaa Allah so I’m going to focus on growing the blog, knowing I start work soon. In fact, I have an interview coming up soon for a graduate role, so only Allah knows what will happen. Maybe I’m doing it all wrong, but this is what’s planned for me and you just have to trust Allah and His plan.
And that’s just where I’m at right now.
*Okay, it’s funny how things work isn’t it? I literally wrote this blog post, came downstairs and found something out that means that job I’ve got isn’t as secure as it might seem. Sooo that means I’ll have to wait and see how that interview goes then, won’t I? Let this remind you that you never know what the future holds! It really is funny how oblivious we are to the future. When I’ve made some progress on the job side of things I might write a part 2 of this, let me know if that’s something you’d be interested in reading.
I know it was a lengthy one, so thank you for reading! I feel like I’ve just written an essay lol. But I hope this can help some of you who may be in similar positions or if even one person can relate then it’s a job well done.
If you’re looking for a graduate role, my advice would be to keep going. Trust the process and know what’s happening is supposed to be happening – you’re exactly where you’re supposed to be. Don’t give up, just keep trying and if you’re in that slump then honestly please don’t hesitate to get in touch via email or even send a DM.
You’re closer than you think, just keep moving forward!
1 Week Mary x