Sooo, I wonder what this post could be. Let me give you a clue: the title. The title is the clue guys.
It’s 3am (3.14am to be exact), it’s just taken us 6 hours and 40 minutes to drive from London to Manchester because of the road works and Tom Tom and ‘diversion’ signs being everywhere and then, once you actually follow a couple, the rest are nowhere to be seen. Anyway, enough on that or I could be here all day.
I’ve done some yoga for my ‘week of yoga’ this week (new post will be up on Sunday), I’m sat on my bed with huge bags under my eyes (10p not even 5p) but I’m determined to write this out. If not for you, then for myself, because even I don’t know what I’m thinking right now.
I’ve started my second year of uni and we’ve been looking at so many interesting things in depth. I’ll hopefully be writing some posts on those, soon, as I have a lot to say. For now, I’ll just let you know that you’ll be shocked. And disgusted – not by me, but by humanity, society and the not-so-distant past. Keep an eye out for those posts, they’ll be very interesting.
Soo, my birthday’s coming up in November. I’m going to be 20. 20. Not another something-teen, but twenty. Like, couldn’t it be twenteen? I don’t think I’m mature enough to be 2o, because (I’m pretty sure everyone did this but) when I was younger I always thought that ‘big’ people had everything sorted and knew exactly what they were doing. Oh, if only I knew. It’s so sad that I’ll never ever ever be a teenager again, and it really hurts. But I guess that’s all a part of growing up, isn’t it? It’ll be goodbye to one decade and the start of another. Plus, I don’t think I’ll ever really ‘grow up’ and my teenage memories will be with me forever. Yes, I am trying to make myself feel better, okay, because I don’t know how old you are and you may be reading this and thinking “she thinks 20’s old?! She’s in for a shock” but I do think 20’s old. Well, tbh I don’t really. But it’s old for me. I just want to be 14 again. Or 15. Or any number-teen.
It’s strange because so many of my friends are married, most of whom I went to school with, and one of them is even a mum. Like, how crazy is that? One day we’re in P.E running around or just being kids and talking about the future, next thing you know, she has a baby who’s almost 1. It’s all a part of life, though, I guess…
I also went to the gym this week (I know, I know). I went last week, too, and the lady told me I hadn’t been in for 177 days…yeah. Well, I did tell her I hadn’t been in for around 5 months anyway, but 177 days sounds worse than 5 months doesn’t it? I’m determined not to leave it that long this time – or even half that time, or even half of half that time (which is a quarter).
My last thought is that I’m going to go and watch some Youtube videos – probably from the Sidemen and all the rest of those Youtubers we know and love. I think I’ve been watching tooooo much Youtube recently, because almost everyone I see seems to be a Youtuber look alike. It’s actually getting kinda scary when I feel the need to keep doing double takes thinking I’ve just seen Joe Sugg going up the escalator or KSI just casually wandering around…yeah.
Now we’re on the topic of Youtubers, here are some of my new favourites: Emily Canham (she’s abs gorgeous), Callux, MiniMinter – I basically just watched one of the Sidemen videos a couple of days ago, and now I can’t stop. And here are some of my already-favourites: Rumena Begum, Caspar Lee, Joe Sugg, Conor Maynard, and basically their whole crew. Ooh, and Louise (Sprinkle of Glitter) is one of mew faves, too. She recently did a video on changing her vlogs and being herself more. I loved that video and although I never watched her before, I’m definitely going to watch her videos now because, in all honesty, I’m just nosey and want to know about other people’s lives. Jokes, I’m excited to get to know the real her and not the version of herself she was portraying before, as she said.
And those are some of my 3am thoughts, thanks for reading! I know they were a bit jumbled, but, you know, it’s 3am…
Now it’s your turn to share; what are you thinking about right this minute? Don’t worry, I won’t tell anyone!
1 Week Mary x